Sunday, May 15, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Well, the chorus at the end was in my head so I wrote it to Steve like this...
Always treat me like a lady, never grow to old to call me baby..... and love me like crazy...
And this was his response....
I will never grow to old to call you Baby, and i will always honor you as my Lady, My love for you and us will always be crazy
just had to write it in my journal because it made my insides go crazy... and I want something in writing to remind him if he ever gets to ornery:) (He probably won't, but....)
Monday, December 27, 2010
I am so grateful to my Father in Heaven, for giving us the gift of His Son's life. It is my quest to become more like Him each day, and to create a deeper connection with Him and come to know His true character. I know He lives, my life is evidence of that!
Here are some pics... enjoy!!!
We started off with breakfast this year instead of dinner for our family party
I love this picture.... My Grandma Reva and sister Tonia
One happy happy little boy with his "baby" gun. He is SO excited to go hunting "bad lion's!" with Steve :)
My mom's casket...aka her cedar chest she has been waiting for forever :) My dad is a very talented man!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
The Lord's promptings are clear,
I ask, plead for more time as the pathway appears.
He says it is to late,
We have work to do, things to bring to pass.
I bow my head,
put my hand in His, eyes closed.
So many emotions flood
each time released by the embrace of His hug.
Others look at me,
thinking I am alone going blindly.
I KNOW He is there,
things aren't always as they appear.
HE knows my heart,
And that is the most important part.
HE knows my pleadings,
He is the one who needs me.
HE knows my worries,
He is the one urging me to hurry.
HE knows my strifes,
He is the one guiding my life.
HE knows my fear,
He is the one wiping away my tears.
I keep moving with Faith,
my prayers being my interface.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Mike and I have divorced. Not sure what else to say to that, except that it is for the best and my children and I have been blessed beyond our comprehension. it went really quickly, only 20 days, which is a record as far as I know. As many of you might know, we were separated 3 years ago for a few months. It has been a rough and good experience the last 3 years, but we just weren't ever able to completely repair things and he chose out. That is where all the blessings begin, on the day that I had to really make the choice of what to do, and tell him I was moving forward without looking back, something amazing happened.......
I met Steve :) Only the Lord could have placed this wonderful man in my life. We are like little kids and everything clicks. That first night we talked for 6 hours. (9 pm to 3 am) The next day we talked for 5 hours, and then text all day long, talk on the phone a few times after he gets off of work and then for a couple hours on video chat after the kids are in bed. Yes I still find time to clean my house and take care of kids, lol :)We figured out that after 3 weeks of talking, NOT including text messages and the 2 times we met in person, that we had been on 21 3 hour dates :) Then last weekend he was visiting, and did the math and figured out that everything in 7 weeks added up to be a good 2 year relationship... lol :) He lives in Colorado, so we are SO GRATEFUL for technology! (Kips song I love technology, our song:))
My parents love him, and heard wedding bells the first time we met. And if any of you know my dad, he is usually not that easy to impress, especially by a guy that is dating his daughter. He LOVES and adores my kids, and they love him. Jessa walks around all day asking " Where's Steve?" And when they are with him, they warm up to him, cuddle and play with him and he soaks in every second. They haven't felt so much love in a long time.
SO....... this brings me to something crazy.... we are engaged!!! I know it is crazy, and trust me I have had my doubts :( ( he is SO kind and patient and understanding... seriously he is a guy off of a romance movie/book in real life) However, I have had numerous confirmations by the Spirit that this is right. My mom always tells me, After the trial of your Faith cometh the blessings. I want to share this with you because of how blessed I truly am, and I know it.
We always comment on how this is a fairy tale, which is so amazing.
Love you all!
Oh and here is the ring :) hehehehe
Sunday, November 28, 2010
My thoughts and feelings seem so entangled at times that I am not sure what I am feeling or what I am thinking. Confusion sets in and makes you question every move, thought, word, feeling and emotion you expressed.
God lives. He loves us, He loves me. He prepares the way through the thick forest that is our life. Even though we feel blind and unable, we move forward. There may be a scratch from a branch, a log we step over, we might even fall from tripping on the uneven ground. However, the way is still cut out and as we follow it our eyes are opened and we will come to a clearing that is greater beyond our comprehension. This feeling of freedom from chaos around is a support to when we cross that clearing and continue our trek to the next one. As we move through the tight quarters, we can close our eyes and remember the freedom we once felt and the peace knowing that there is a place like that ahead.
I have felt disconnected from the Spirit as of late. My soul longs for that welling up inside when I pray, read my scriptures and move through my day. I am in a thick part of my forest, moving forward and remembering the clearing I was able to be in for a little while. Remembering the feeling of peace that I was doing good; good for me, my family and our relationship with God. I am holding on to the lessons learned from my previous trek, reminding myself to pick up my feet, move forward and let God guide me, not just follow Him.